You're the one who brought up the hypotheticals?!?!
[ They're going to get sidetracked here if they're not careful. Izuku doesn't even stop the shaking although Katsuki's palms are sparking and he likes this shirt so after a minute he grabs the blond's wrists to try to tug them free a bit...
Please leave his clothes in peace. ]
A-and of course it's a yes if that was what you were asking but you just - this is a lot to process?! And they could probably hear us -
I was trying to make a point. I just wanted to hear...
(Well, he's already explained why he was upset, so. He doesn't reiterate. He lets go of Izuku and looks down between them, feeling a strange blend of nervous and embarrassed and maybe partly resolved.)
[ ...does wanting it to be a moment just for them hit different when the other people are also them - okay, that isn't important right now. ]
...Kacchan, I will always want you to be happy. Even if it wasn't with me...I'd want to be as close as I could get to you. Of course...I'd prefer it if we could be happy together. Um, but...the reason this is happening is because you made me realize it could happen. I didn't even - until you asked me to sleep with you, I never let myself...think about it really. It, um, I always - I probably always knew if I gave myself permission to think about you like that, I wouldn't be able to stop.
(Okay, yeah, he'd contest to that. He doesn't really push the subject though mostly because this other one is way more important. Plus, he has stopped yelling at least.
He...understands, is the thing. He realizes why Izuku wouldn't have ever thought them possible.)
I get it. (Softly.)
I get why you have accepted that kind of reality. Let yourself imagine me with other people and been content with that. (He reaches a hand out to lightly take one of Izuku's.)
I never gave you a reason to believe in us as a couple before we got here. And the stupid thing is, and maybe it's why I'm jealous, but back home, I knew girls liked you. I knew people had crushes on you, and I never let myself think about us together either until we got here.
(He had never been jealous back home, but like Izuku, that was just because he hadn't allowed himself the luxury of being open about his feelings with Izuku.)
I want you to be possessive of me. Because I want to be possessive of you. I want to be the one to make you happy. (He slowly slides their fingers together, staring intently at their hands, at the natural way their palms fit perfectly together.)
I wish I had grabbed your hand back then. (He brings Izuku's hand up to kiss his knuckles, closing his eyes.)
But I know you're right. We can't control what happened in the past or what would happen in other timelines. I can take your hand now. (He looks up at Izuku, his eyes shining red.)
That's all that matters to me too. I'm...sorry...I didn't know how to tell you that sooner...And I'm sorry if...I made you feel bad because of it. I wasn't...I just...Didn't know how to say all of this without being nervous about fucking shit up. But I don't want to make you look like I'm about to hit you either just 'cause I'm fucking insecure about where we stand.
I'm insecure too. [ Just...usually in a less jealous way somehow. Maybe because Izuku hasn't really considered he has competition at home; he's sure people like Katsuki, but he's always assumed that. And here...
Maybe he gets a little bit pouty when Katsuki cooks for other people, but he also volunteers Katsuki's cooking for others to try, so.
He flips his wrist, forcing Katsuki's hand to turn over, their heartbeat marks facing up.
They're both pounding. Unsteady lines. ]
I want to be the person you like most. I do...I just, um, I've been laser focused on you here I guess. I'm sorry for making you feel insecure. And...I don't think you should feel guilty about feeling jealous. Um, but...you should know that...there isn't anyone for you to be jealous of.
[ Here or at home.
...Well, maybe All Might... ]
You're the only person I want like that, Kacchan. And...um, you win against future you, too.
You don't seem it with us. (But also Izuku was always the nicer of the two of them. His insecurity probably just looked different. It would probably make Katsuki a little happy to know Izuku got jealous too...)
You never seemed to care at the idea of me being into other people.
(Which is where he felt hurt.)
It's hard to hear you say all that shit, I guess. I know it's dumb. I know it's healthier that you want me to be happy even if it's not with you. I just...I hate that you'd be okay with that.
(Or something.)
You're always the person I like the most. I mean, fuck. I don't even contemplate the possibilities with other people even in some weird abstract. I think I got really hung up on the fact that you can imagine other shit.
(And...Katsuki couldn't.)
I can't ask you to change your feelings. But I'm never going to be okay with the fact that you'd be okay with me being happy with someone else. I can't change that any more than I can change you. I just want us to be equals and maybe I felt like we aren't- weren't equals when it comes to this shit. I think maybe...I thought it all meant I liked you more than you liked me.
(He's not SAYING That's how it is, he's just explaining his thought process.)
I fuckin' better. I wanna win against everyone else anywhere else.
Um...Kacchan, think about how we both act when we lose at something. Like...a video game or whatever. This is - it matters way more than that, but.
[ Katsuki has always been a sore loser. He's been muzzled on live television for throwing a hissy fit over a perceived imperfect victory.
...Izuku doesn't do that! He usually compliments other people on their victories and the like. ]
We, um, we've always had pretty drastically different ways of dealing with losses. The fact I don't have a meltdown about it doesn't mean I enjoy losing. We're almost never going to process or react to situations in the same exact way emotionally speaking.
You don't need to apologize for that. I mean...well, I do get why it's happening. You've always wanted perfect victories, and me thinking other people are good looking or acknowledging in an alternate universe where neither of us made a move I might date someone else probably feels like an imperfect one.
[ Izuku's just been looking at it a bit differently. ]
But the thing is...You're my first kiss. And the first person I ever slept with. And the first person who ever told me they liked me. You're the first person I ever liked. You, um. You've already got a perfect victory record when it comes to me in every way that counts.
(He...loves you, Izuku. Katsuki has relaxed substantially though. He seems more embarrassed than angry now. Being able to talk about this honestly was...easier. Easier than assuming the worst from rhetorical questions.
He doesn't smile at Izuku's words, but there is a warmth that radiates from him that's somehow better than a smile.)
I want to keep it that way. (He moves his hands to grab Izuku by his hips and pulls him a bit close.)
...Erm. (He's never imagined himself getting this far but now that he IS here it would be stupid to...not...)
...Do you...want to be my boyfriend then? I'm asking you out.
(He pulls Izuku against him in a tight, desperate sort of hold. He never really thought they would get here, but fuck he's grateful.
But there's more than that. He slowly pulls back. He keeps his arms around Izuku, just looking at him for a second, his eyes wide. His tails were fluffing up behind him and he finally managed to clear his throat.)
Yeah. (His own heartbeat was pounding. But it wasn't as hard as it could have been. Katsuki knew he would have never been able to offer the bond to Izuku without clarifying this other shit first.
But now that Izuku knew his feelings...Returned them...There was no real risk left in establishing that bond.)
I'd fuckin' kill you if you did. (Lol, no he wouldn't. But he bows his head down and kisses Izuku's forehead.)
I just want it to be us. I'm realizing maybe...I'm pretty good at being your familiar. Keeping you on track. It ain't the worst deal. So. Yeah. Be my familiar? (He's pretty sure this is how that thing worked. A formal question needed to be asked, right?)
[ Gonna assume he said "Be my Myth?" and Izuku's nodding rapidly, clutching Katsuki closer like he wants to make sure he's real. That this is really happening.
...they got called out so hard and so right on the soul mate stuff. ]
He smiles when Izuku says yes and he nods after he asks.)
'Course I will be.
(There's this clicking sound and then it's just - open. Some wall between them falls down and it's not as intimidating as Katsuki would have thought. He can feel Izuku, hear him, know him, but it didn't feel like either of them were being put under a microscope. His love and admiration for Izuku slips into the bond effortlessly, an empathetic bond more than verbal, and he's -
Happy. Really, really fucking happy. He presses their mouths together and he can't help but feel pretty damn victorious too.)
(You kidding? It's already one of his favorite things about the connection. Katsuki's own mind space is surprisingly calm and quiet. He's calculating and considerate.
Whoops.
He lets the moment last a bit longer before he inevitably remembers dinner. He cannot let it get burnt okay-!)
(He knows he does. There's actually effortless trust in them and Izuku would likely be able to feel that now. But given their whole kinda-fight-not really just now, maybe he wanted to hear the reiteration! He's grinning though, bringing his mouth to Izuku's neck for a soft kiss.)
(Listen. He's always possessive of Izuku but now more than ever. It would probably take some time before he chilled out a bit in that regard. He bites a mark against Izuku's skin, sucking on the spot hard enough that it would bruise later.)
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[ They're going to get sidetracked here if they're not careful. Izuku doesn't even stop the shaking although Katsuki's palms are sparking and he likes this shirt so after a minute he grabs the blond's wrists to try to tug them free a bit...
Please leave his clothes in peace. ]
A-and of course it's a yes if that was what you were asking but you just - this is a lot to process?! And they could probably hear us -
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I was trying to make a point. I just wanted to hear...
(Well, he's already explained why he was upset, so. He doesn't reiterate. He lets go of Izuku and looks down between them, feeling a strange blend of nervous and embarrassed and maybe partly resolved.)
I don't care if they hear us.
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[ ...does wanting it to be a moment just for them hit different when the other people are also them - okay, that isn't important right now. ]
...Kacchan, I will always want you to be happy. Even if it wasn't with me...I'd want to be as close as I could get to you. Of course...I'd prefer it if we could be happy together. Um, but...the reason this is happening is because you made me realize it could happen. I didn't even - until you asked me to sleep with you, I never let myself...think about it really. It, um, I always - I probably always knew if I gave myself permission to think about you like that, I wouldn't be able to stop.
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He...understands, is the thing. He realizes why Izuku wouldn't have ever thought them possible.)
I get it. (Softly.)
I get why you have accepted that kind of reality. Let yourself imagine me with other people and been content with that. (He reaches a hand out to lightly take one of Izuku's.)
I never gave you a reason to believe in us as a couple before we got here. And the stupid thing is, and maybe it's why I'm jealous, but back home, I knew girls liked you. I knew people had crushes on you, and I never let myself think about us together either until we got here.
(He had never been jealous back home, but like Izuku, that was just because he hadn't allowed himself the luxury of being open about his feelings with Izuku.)
I want you to be possessive of me. Because I want to be possessive of you. I want to be the one to make you happy. (He slowly slides their fingers together, staring intently at their hands, at the natural way their palms fit perfectly together.)
I wish I had grabbed your hand back then. (He brings Izuku's hand up to kiss his knuckles, closing his eyes.)
But I know you're right. We can't control what happened in the past or what would happen in other timelines. I can take your hand now. (He looks up at Izuku, his eyes shining red.)
That's all that matters to me too. I'm...sorry...I didn't know how to tell you that sooner...And I'm sorry if...I made you feel bad because of it. I wasn't...I just...Didn't know how to say all of this without being nervous about fucking shit up. But I don't want to make you look like I'm about to hit you either just 'cause I'm fucking insecure about where we stand.
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Maybe he gets a little bit pouty when Katsuki cooks for other people, but he also volunteers Katsuki's cooking for others to try, so.
He flips his wrist, forcing Katsuki's hand to turn over, their heartbeat marks facing up.
They're both pounding. Unsteady lines. ]
I want to be the person you like most. I do...I just, um, I've been laser focused on you here I guess. I'm sorry for making you feel insecure. And...I don't think you should feel guilty about feeling jealous. Um, but...you should know that...there isn't anyone for you to be jealous of.
[ Here or at home.
...Well, maybe All Might... ]
You're the only person I want like that, Kacchan. And...um, you win against future you, too.
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You never seemed to care at the idea of me being into other people.
(Which is where he felt hurt.)
It's hard to hear you say all that shit, I guess. I know it's dumb. I know it's healthier that you want me to be happy even if it's not with you. I just...I hate that you'd be okay with that.
(Or something.)
You're always the person I like the most. I mean, fuck. I don't even contemplate the possibilities with other people even in some weird abstract. I think I got really hung up on the fact that you can imagine other shit.
(And...Katsuki couldn't.)
I can't ask you to change your feelings. But I'm never going to be okay with the fact that you'd be okay with me being happy with someone else. I can't change that any more than I can change you. I just want us to be equals and maybe I felt like we aren't- weren't equals when it comes to this shit. I think maybe...I thought it all meant I liked you more than you liked me.
(He's not SAYING That's how it is, he's just explaining his thought process.)
I fuckin' better. I wanna win against everyone else anywhere else.
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[ Katsuki has always been a sore loser. He's been muzzled on live television for throwing a hissy fit over a perceived imperfect victory.
...Izuku doesn't do that! He usually compliments other people on their victories and the like. ]
We, um, we've always had pretty drastically different ways of dealing with losses. The fact I don't have a meltdown about it doesn't mean I enjoy losing. We're almost never going to process or react to situations in the same exact way emotionally speaking.
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...You...
(FFFFFFFFFFFFMDFBD.)
Have a point.
(Yeah okay Izuku's got him. He drops his head down against Izuku's shoulder and...kind of...has to laugh. At himself, mostly.)
I ain't having a meltdown. (He ABSOLUTELY is - or okay, was. He's better now. He picks his head back up. He...really...was the world's sorest loser.)
Fuckin...All right, yeah. Okay. (Guh.)
Sorry. (Because. Yeah.)
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[ Izuku's just been looking at it a bit differently. ]
But the thing is...You're my first kiss. And the first person I ever slept with. And the first person who ever told me they liked me. You're the first person I ever liked. You, um. You've already got a perfect victory record when it comes to me in every way that counts.
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(He...loves you, Izuku. Katsuki has relaxed substantially though. He seems more embarrassed than angry now. Being able to talk about this honestly was...easier. Easier than assuming the worst from rhetorical questions.
He doesn't smile at Izuku's words, but there is a warmth that radiates from him that's somehow better than a smile.)
I want to keep it that way. (He moves his hands to grab Izuku by his hips and pulls him a bit close.)
...Erm. (He's never imagined himself getting this far but now that he IS here it would be stupid to...not...)
...Do you...want to be my boyfriend then? I'm asking you out.
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Katsuki pulls him closer and Izuku slides his arms around the blond's shoulders. ]
Yes. As long as it's a reciprocal you're mine too thing.
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(He pulls Izuku against him in a tight, desperate sort of hold. He never really thought they would get here, but fuck he's grateful.
But there's more than that. He slowly pulls back. He keeps his arms around Izuku, just looking at him for a second, his eyes wide. His tails were fluffing up behind him and he finally managed to clear his throat.)
I want to be your familiar too.
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[ Okay maybe that one is less surprising than the dating part...Izuku's heart is still pounding, the beat wild on Katsuki's wrist. ]
I, um, I'd like that a lot. If you're sure! I don't want another familiar either.
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But now that Izuku knew his feelings...Returned them...There was no real risk left in establishing that bond.)
I'd fuckin' kill you if you did. (Lol, no he wouldn't. But he bows his head down and kisses Izuku's forehead.)
I just want it to be us. I'm realizing maybe...I'm pretty good at being your familiar. Keeping you on track. It ain't the worst deal. So. Yeah. Be my familiar? (He's pretty sure this is how that thing worked. A formal question needed to be asked, right?)
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...they got called out so hard and so right on the soul mate stuff. ]
Yes. I'll be your Myth...will you be my Familiar?
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He smiles when Izuku says yes and he nods after he asks.)
'Course I will be.
(There's this clicking sound and then it's just - open. Some wall between them falls down and it's not as intimidating as Katsuki would have thought. He can feel Izuku, hear him, know him, but it didn't feel like either of them were being put under a microscope. His love and admiration for Izuku slips into the bond effortlessly, an empathetic bond more than verbal, and he's -
Happy. Really, really fucking happy. He presses their mouths together and he can't help but feel pretty damn victorious too.)
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Izuku feels happy right now. Nervous and happy and totally out of his head and going on tiptoe to kiss Katsuki back.
...they abandoned both dinner and themselves. ]
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Whoops.
He lets the moment last a bit longer before he inevitably remembers dinner. He cannot let it get burnt okay-!)
C'mon. We have company.
(Them. They were their own company.)
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O-oh. Um, yeah! I guess we should get back? Uh...
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There somethin' you want?
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[ That's almost always true though. ]
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(He knows he does. There's actually effortless trust in them and Izuku would likely be able to feel that now. But given their whole kinda-fight-not really just now, maybe he wanted to hear the reiteration! He's grinning though, bringing his mouth to Izuku's neck for a soft kiss.)
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[ Though right now admittedly another Katsuki exists... ]
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(Listen. He's always possessive of Izuku but now more than ever. It would probably take some time before he chilled out a bit in that regard. He bites a mark against Izuku's skin, sucking on the spot hard enough that it would bruise later.)
I'm your only damn possibility.
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[ He always likes it when Katsuki bites, his head slipping to the side as his eyes go half lidded. ]
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